Saturday, February 21, 2009

Spiritual companionship

As humans we need support to continue on the path.Interdependence of life makes us,form a circle of people who motivate and inspire us to go forward.The goal of spirituality is to realize the divinity in everything.To view everything from the same source.There are huge paradoxical events which arise,when you belong to a spiritual community.The first thought which hits you,is that..."You are special".
You start noticing how the world works and how un-spiritual people are.Everyone is materialistic and somehow on the opposite side of divinity.Its another ego high/trip which I guess we have to enjoy.The downfall happens right afterwards,when we are stuck to spend most of the time with the so called un-spiritual people.Differences always exist.Conformity will kill humanity.

The solution would be to get rid of the idea that we are special, because we are spiritual.To dispose ideas and make the ego take a beating is painful.

The alternative solution would be to disperse the wisdom and make them special like you.I always think the second alternative is fun.

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Ideal World

Idealism is one of the driving forces of the illusions we form of the world around us.The world we create can never be segregated into black or white.There are shades of grey which always make our life difficult.Idealism is like permanent happiness...

Permanent happiness is never possible.Our childhood mostly creates fantasies of the idealistic world in our minds.We feel hurt when the practical never matches the ideal.One of the main concerns which keeps the misery going on..is that..."We demand and feel that we deserve a ideal world."
So we keep dreaming that when I achieve this or do that... the world will somehow turn into fairy land which was conceived,when we were 10 years old.
The world does not owe us anything...It does not owe us an ideal world...

Sunday, January 25, 2009

Books...

Few of the books which integrate psychology and spirituality ...

1.David Richo

How to be an Adult
How to be an Adult in Relationships

2.Scott Peck

Road less travelled
Further along the Road less travelled

3.Carl Jung
All his books are valuable for anyone who wants to know how our mind works.

4.Julia Cameron

The Artist's way

This is a amazing book for anyone who wants to be creative.
All the blocked artists(me included)should consider this book as a treasure.Recently I found out that this book was used in lot of artists workshops.

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Humility

I was fed up with the rat race...So I decided that I would serve at a monastery(for few days) and fill my world with peace.I waited for the D-day with lot of excitement.One of the jobs I was given was to cook.I had to prepare meals for 40 people.Preparing the meal was not difficult.But as usual I was worried about the results.All thoughts starting with "IF "..became the major theme in my mind.

As the people who meditate eat very less..The only "whole" meal was during lunch.I was worried that if I would mess up,then they would starve the whole day.My anxiety used to turn into panic attacks when serving time approached.I became little paranoid..I also used to get obsessed with perfection,tried working the whole day and sleeping only for few hours.The service became a misery to me.I had to deal with all the issues I normally have in a professional work place.After 3 days,I started missing my work-life...That was less stressful..."At least I don't have nightmare's where people suffer from food poisoning."

Humility is one of the best ways of dissolving the ego.Everything we achieve in the field of professional/personal/spiritual realm makes us more confident and the downside to that is that ,we feel, we are more important.Service was one of the ways which helped me understand the way my ego works.But even in service we start having expectations...We want to get noticed,we want to compete and we want to attach ourselves to the results.As I was returning back to my home I realized that,we can change the background in our life.But wherever we go,we project our own world.Our mind is filled with lot of issues which call for attention.

The food turned out good.All my worrying went in vain.There was a American psychologist( PhD and all the additional tags) who used to wash dishes there.He never traded places with any of us.According to him, dish washing was the easiest way to Nirvana.A educated person doing manual labor, is the ultimate solution for the intellectual ego.Gandhi followed that a lot in his life.

We all have the major instinct. We all want to be important, to surpass others, to achieve distinction, to lead the parade. ... And the great issue of life is to harness the major instinct. It is a good instinct if you don't distort it and pervert it. Don't give it up. Keep feeling the need for being important. Keep feeling the need for being first. But I want you to be the first in love. I want you to be the first in moral excellence. I want you to be the first in generosity.
--Dr. Martin Luther King Jr.


The meditation I talk about is Vipassana Meditation(www.dhamma.org)

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

To defend ourselves

As humans with uncontrollable emotions we all are vulnerable.Whenever we are threatened we become defensive.We try to erect a wall of logic.I mix logic with lies, so that I can attract sympathy from people.The reason we get defensive is not to fool others but to protect ourselves from psychological pain.As free individuals we dont owe any explanation,as to why we behave a certain way or
why we react a certain way to situations.As long as we abide by the laws of the state and make choices which do not affect others,our actions/reactions cannot be judged.But we land up in situations,where our life becomes the focus and also what we are becomes a fact.
Facts are laws which do not change over time.As humans we vary our desires,ambitions and our lives every day.So when our lives are viewed as a fact...as a done deal,we feel threatened.I have recently realized that we feel hurt,only when we truly believe what others say.If you brush it off and let go of our defenses,it does not effect you.But as easy as it sounds,its very difficult to implement.I could never be impassive to any one's comments.But the only solution I found was to deal head on.I directly question the intention of the person who is assaulting me.Its embrassing the first few seconds,as the person is in shock.Honesty is scary to people who want to make you feel inferior.I have tried it in few situations...it helped me reduce the amount of logic and lies I use in counteracting judgements.

Monday, January 12, 2009

One minute Excellence

This article made a huge impact on me..
Its a article by Tom Peters



I can sense the curling of your lips. While such a catchphrase makes me shudder, too, it contains a gem waiting to be discovered.

How do you go on an effective diet? How do you stop smoking? How do you stop drinking?

In short, you do it and it's done. Then you work [hard] for the rest of your life to stay on the weight-maintenance, non-smoking, or booze-free wagon.

A while back, I came across a line attributed to IBM founder Thomas Watson, If you want to achieve excellence, he said, you can get there today. As of this second quit doing less-than-excellent work.

The idea is profound.

Suppose you're a waiter and, for your own future's sake (...) you decide to set a matchless standard for service. How? You do it. Now.

Sure you'll be clumsy at first. You'll get a lot of it wrong. You'll need to read up, listen to audio-tapes, take classes, tune in to on-line electronic chat rooms, visit other restaurants to collect clues. And you'll need to keep doing such things to maintain your edge (as an opera singer or a professional athlete does).

Nonetheless, you can become excellent in a nanosecond, staring with your first guest tonight. [...]

Does it sound wild? Silly? Naive? Maybe, but it isn't. The first 99.9 percent of getting from here to these is the determination to do it and not to compromise, no matter what sort of roadblocks those around you (including peers) erect.

The last 99.9 percent (I know it adds up to more than 100 percent -- that's life) is working [in right earnest] to
1. Keep your spirits up through the inevitable storms
2. learn something new every day
3. practice that something, awkward or not and no matter what, until it's become part of your nature.

What holds for the waiter also holds for the manager of a six-person department or the cheif executive of the 16,000 person firm.

How long does it take you, as boss, to achieve world-class quality? Less than a nanosecond to attain it, a lifetime of passionate pursuit to maintain it,
- By Tom Peters from "The Pursuit of Wow!"

Saturday, January 03, 2009

S. A. D

Seasonal affective disorder (SAD), also known as winter depression or winter blues, is a mood disorder in which people who have normal mental health throughout most of the year experience depressive symptoms in the winter or, less frequently, in the summer, repeatedly, year after year.They may sleep too much, have little energy, and crave sweets and starchy foods. They may also feel depressed. Though symptoms can be severe, they usually clear up

I get gloomy whenever the winter approaches.Rainy season also makes my days dull.I used to always wonder how Indian actress's get happy and dance in the rain...
It was always the opposite for me.I could never get out of bed,if the weather is cloudy,with never ending greyness.I dislike the hill stations in India..and always had a fantasy to go to Rajasthan for a vacation.
Even though my depression is not life threatening,it is still a pain living at a place which has rains all year round.(5 months snow also included)
How I wish I had Icelandic ancestry!!!
Wikipedia mentions that people in Iceland are immune to SAD.It seems a certain fish which they consume also makes them winter-friendly.Being a vegetarian the fish solution goes outside the window..

Personally I try to cheat my moods by using lot of lamps,which simulate the summer season.
Cognitive Behavioural Therapy also works fine.Knowing more about the problems we are going to face and having solutions before hand, makes things easier with regard to SAD.
Keeping busy is one of the easiest ways to conquer SAD.

Thursday, January 01, 2009

Rat race part 2

I just wanted to add few sources which can give a spiritual understanding to the term "ambition"(in terms of career)

Dr Larry Brilliant vs The devil of Ambition
Interview with Dr.Larry Brilliant


Adyashanti
Beyond the personal will

Saturday, December 27, 2008

Not having enough

I have always struggled with some insecurity when it comes to relationships.It has always been that I victimize myself.I used to feel that I should be showered with extra amount of "love/care".
So this whole need to cling on to people and expect, was existing for a long time.
By the time I realized my foolishness,I had lot of people who have got used to the "clinging kind of me".They don't accept the changed "me" anymore.For them any positive change in me, means more trouble.Once we change,the people around us should also change(with respect to the way they behave towards us)
Most of the people we meet hate change.So I avoided being real most of the time.I lied,did everything to blend into the surroundings,started acting....did stupid things so that I could be accepted.I don't know, if it was, spiritual study or plain maturity which actually made me realize my own deceptive ways.I started being assertive,stuck to my beliefs and then the most unfortunate thing happened.People started deserting me.They just walked out of my life.

In most of the fairy tales,its always shown so positively.When we become brave and fight all the demons within us we are supposed to get applauded.So I was dumbstruck..when I realized how the world works.
Originality is always seen as a negative trait.Being honest,a huge crime.Only if you are inventive and make lot's of money..then the world acknowledges you..
If you are planning to become real,then say good bye to the world you know.

Friday, December 26, 2008

Rat Race

I am tired of the rat race
I am not talking about the rat race of corporate world.I am talking about tagging.If you are a Indian you will be quite aware of how we need to define ourselves with these tags ... Best School,Best University,Best Company and the list does not end.It causes so much stress to always aim for the best and try to tag it with your name.
They have been instances when I forget the name of the person but I remember the popular university/company they work for.(I know its a pathetic state..But as a middle class Indian I was trained this way)
Why cant future Indians be trained to aim for below average things.
Its the same thing which repeats itself every time you think of future spouse/children.As if thinking of superior standards was not enough..you have to sit and worry about the image of three other people.I feel so happy to meet Indians who are having a different educational background than me.I guess we automatically judge people based on their educational achievements and the company they work for.
When it comes to other nationalities,the talk is always about social life.May be for Indians the lack of social life and higher educational responsibilities ruins our ability to look at each other in any other way.

The World and Us

"The mind creates our world"
{I used to always think..its the other way ...
The world was created and then we entered into it
}

Whenever a desire takes shape within us...It produces a reaction,which we project it outside.
Are there levels of how strong a desire can be?
Is a strong desire called Ambition?
This is where most of the self help make a million dollars.They tell you that there are 10 simple ways to make every desire come true.That seems funny to my mature mind.But I have spent countless hours(when I was younger)reading/revising these great techniques to develop my super-natural abilities.But all the favourable outcomes were forced.Nothing came naturally.That is where I lost all my faith on self help books which tell us that when we change action, everything changes with it.
But the action is made by our thoughts.
But then most of Indian philosophy tells us that all thoughts are false.Our true self lies beyond the mind.

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

To love unconditionally

I guess any person who says "go and love everyone unconditionally" ....must be playing a cruel joke on you.
But as always being the obedient philosophical student,I decided to try that in my life.I failed miserably.I cannot love anyone unconditionally!!!
The more I tried to love people I hate..the more hatred I developed.I started counting the days when they will be out of my life.Failure is such a hard knock on your head..and to top it off, when you fail in your spiritual endeavors.No one shares your spiritual failures.

Few things I realized about unconditional love are as follows...

I thought unconditional love was like "romantic" love shown in movies ....
You feel so nice,the blissful amazing experience like heaven on earth.Unconditional love does not get defined by our inferior standards of romantic love.The possessiveness,domination and feeling special does not exist.Unconditional love just means that you never expect anything in return.That also means that you don't have to compromise your life and your ideals to make the other person feel better.
unconditional love can be defined as the openess of a person who does not get bothered by the other person.How-ever they are..What-ever they are...It does not matter..
You don't want to give them advice/suggestions...You don't want to prove anything..
You exist with them and know in your heart that they are going to evolve in their own pace.

Saturday, November 29, 2008

The hole in your soul

there is always something missing in our lives.When will contentment come.Will it ever come.May be contentment is an illusion.As long our life exists I guess there will always be a hole which needs to be fulfilled by soem desire or the other.

Emotional Help

Emotional help is seen as the best kind of support you would give someone you care about.Lately I have realized that doing it every time, we harm the person rather than help them.I have always observed that in myself and others,that when we don't mature and evolve we repeat the same mistakes again and again.
For example:
If a person has a problem confronting someone and redefining what they want...
"You do it for them"
It may boost your self esteem or make you feel proud that you are taking good care.But your help has actually left them with nothing to work on.If they fall into the same situation again,if I have self esteem issues or if I find my personal value comes from helping them ...I go and solve the problem..This is a vicious circle and this kind of dependency leaves no space for personal growth.Support should be in giving pointers not solving the problem.

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

i am running out of titles

Every interaction,every relationship gets with it a baggage which we should accept.Our parents,friends and other associates come with it and we have to calmly accept them.There is no way that a person who exits in this world can live in isolation without human interaction.Even if it is possible to live in isolation, the mind will create identities within ourself so that a relationship which exits irrespective of the person is kept alive.We all have to take a sip of poison.We can choose the brand of posion we want to gulp down.

Saturday, November 08, 2008

Dither

Dither is an intentionally applied form of noise, used to randomize quantization error, thereby preventing large-scale patterns such as contouring that are more objectionable than uncorrelated noise. Dither is routinely used in processing of both digital audio and digital video data, and is often one of the last stages of audio production to compact disc.


Found this in a technical paper when I was doing some research on Dither.It gives us an idea how our brain uses the sense organs and distorts information.

Our brains are quite good at ignoring unimportant things. For example, you walk into someone's house and you smell a new smell - the way that house smells. After 5 minutes you don't smell it anymore. The smell hasn't gone away - your brain just ignores it when it realizes that it's a constant. The same is true of analog tape noise. If you're like most people you pay attention to the music, you stop hearing the noise after a couple of minutes. Your brain is able to do this all by itself because the noise is unrelated to the signal. It's a constant, unrelated sound that never changes with the music and is therefore unrelated - the brain decides that it doesn't change so it's not worth tracking. Distortion is something different. Distortion, like noise, is typically comprised entirely of unwanted material (I'm not talking about guitar distortion effects or the distortion of a vintage microphone here...). Unlike noise, however, distortion products modulate with the signal. Consequently the brain thinks that this is important material because it's trackable, and therefore you're always paying attention.

Sunday, November 02, 2008

Highs and Lows

Osho says sadness is always real because its our own.

Happiness looks as if its a dream sequence.We sometimes need to pinch ourselves hard to know that we are not dreaming.What makes us happy is a projection of the society.Cave men would have been happy if they killed a huge buffalo.Our happiness lies in conservation of the disappearing buffaloes.Sometimes we feel that both happiness and sadness are an illusion.But misery hits you hard because no one comes to share it with you.Society is built by people who win.So that thought process is inbuilt in us and that makes sorrow very painful.Happiness should also be painful because it passes away so fast.But the applause and the congratulations from people takes us into a drug induced state where we feel we have really done something significant.

Power

Auden wrote:
"O God put away justice and truth for we cannot understand them and do not want them.Eternity would bore us dreadfully.Become our uncle.Look after baby,amuse grandfather,introduce Muriel to a handsome officer.Be interesting and weak like us and we will love you as we love ourselves."


Our human existence is marked by the pursuit of power.The God's we pray to, are powerful.We like only God's who can slay a million devils with a single blow.We don't like weak people.The weak people are the evil people(demons/evil forces) who get defeated by strong people(God)
Worship in most religions is the prayer for power.We want to get promotions so that our fellow employees can be looked down upon.Want a bigger car so that we look with pity on the homeless.Pursuit of power through prayer,money,status,education and work is defined as success in the modern world.We all become powerful from the inside and the outside world.But the most important thing is how we use the power.I am not going to be a simplistic moralist who says power should be used for the good.But to me the true test is how we handle the power.When the power is used to manipulate,the greatest losses occur.When the course of nature is changed we always are doomed.

Thursday, October 16, 2008

Concept of Sin

Who is a sinner and who is a saint...
Are they different?If I rebel against society and don't follow the existing norms I am branded as a sinner.The same sinner would be shown as a saint in a different place with different ideals.Some basic moral values were invented by the society so that people can live in harmony.Monogamy was invented by society so that we can survive as a species.It may not be necessary in the present era,but we still value everything ancient.Underneath all the culture we still are animals and we behave like wild creatures once we are through with following society standards.Laws of the government and the scales of justice are formed by taking the consensus of powerful people.In olden days pushing a woman into fire as a offering was totally fine.But now it has been changed.In the same way murder in some countries are pardonable.Honor killings to be precise.So we all are a step away from rotting in prison.May be the murderers/thieves and other lower forms of society are one step away from becoming morally programmed citizens.Reforms in prisons have always showed that the mind is like clay.It can be shaped into any mold.

Wednesday, October 01, 2008

Dealing with Scum

The Avadhut said:

Hold not the immature, the credulous, the foolish, the slow, the layman and the fallen to have nothing good in them. They all teach something. Learn from them. Surely we do not give up a game although we have mastered it?


-Avadhut Gita

I guess we all get our share of scum in everyday life.
Why do we meet these people?

I feel sometimes there is something which is not resolved in me.That's manifests as anger towards these people.Its not the people or their life which generates dissatisfaction,may be its my expectation of goodness from everyone.I try to find a reason and a purpose behind everything.I guess it does not exist.May be pity or other strong emotions of empathy can cloud our judgment.But ultimately the true nature always shines through.We may close our eyes towards it....but it is still there.Kindness in all forms was my motto in dealing with such people.But I guess we all have a threshold and beyond which we cannot stretch our niceness.

Monday, September 29, 2008

For all the male chauvinists out there...

A man was sick and tired of going to work every day while his wife stayed home.

He wanted her to see what he went through so he prayed:

"Dear Lord: I go to work every day and put in 8 hours while my wife merely stays at home. I want her to know what I go through, so please allow her body to switch with mine for a day. Amen."

God, in his infinite wisdom, granted the man's wish.

The next morning, sure enough, the man awoke as a woman.

He arose, cooked breakfast for his mate, awakened the kids; set out their school clothes, fed them breakfast, packed their lunches; drove them to school, came home and picked up the dry cleaning, took it to the cleaners and stopped at the bank to make a deposit, went grocery shopping; then drove home to put away the groceries; paid the bills and balanced the check book.

He cleaned the cat's litter box and bathed the dog. Then it was already 1 P.M. and he hurried to make the beds, do the laundry, vacuum, dust, and sweep and mop the kitchen floor. Ran to the school to pick up the kids and got into an argument with them on the way home. Set out milk and cookies and got the kids organized to do their homework, then set up the ironing board and watched TV while he did the ironing.

At 4:30 he began peeling potatoes and washing vegetables for salad, breaded the pork chops and snapped fresh beans for supper. After supper, he cleaned the kitchen, ran the dishwasher, folded laundry, bathed the kids, and put them to bed. At 9 P.M. He was exhausted, and, though his daily chores weren't finished, he went to bed where he was expected to make love, which he managed to get through without complaint.

The next morning, he awoke and immediately knelt by the bed and said, “Lord, I don't know what I was thinking. I was so wrong to envy my wife's being able to stay home all day. Please, oh please, let us trade back."

The Lord, in his infinite wisdom, replied, "My son, I feel you have learned your lesson and I will be happy to change things back to the way they were. You'll just have to wait nine months, though. You got pregnant last night!!!!!"
Does this remind you of any woman in your family? Then do me a favour, call them & make their day by telling them that you do not envy them and also tell them how important they are in your life.

Taken from
http://www.helpothers.org/my/story.php?op=view&sid=8894

Sunday, September 28, 2008

Self Restraint

Self-control is always seen as something which gives strength. In recent times Gandhi had made it very popular.
Is self-control necessary to live our life?
What makes us different from murderers, thieves and other anti-social people.They have the same range of emotions and desires like us.We have anger,violence,love,greed and jealousy which are the basis of our life.Or is the logic which drives this is.... "As long as you don’t get caught you are not a thief."
We all suffer from sudden outburst of anger and we all have emotions which can actually result in unfavourable consequences.Underneath all the civilized human set-up we are still wired to hunt and kill.May be now because we are so good at hiding our emotions with action/adventure movies,we seemed to forget that .Sometimes the voice in our heads,reaches outside and we are thrown into an asylum.

Sunday, September 21, 2008

Weakness

All our talents are of no use to the world.The world mostly thrives on our weakness.Any weakness we have will get exploited and used for all kinds of material.physical and spiritual gain.The world does not work on principles of gift economy or intelligent consumerism.
I am not trying to paint a nihilistic view of the world.
I feel there is hope when we learn more and more about how the society keeps it self alive.

Saturday, September 13, 2008

Absolute and Relative terms

When we define life or when we try to explain our own lives ,there is always this desire to put it in absolute terms.We want to identify our life through our profession,our achievements,our failures and also through our nationality/race/caste.But as I have explored trying to explain my life through these stable terms ,I have realized that it is a illusion.The same thing happens when I try to define someone through these narrow limitations.

But can we survive in this world without making these limited claims?
If someone asks you whether this person is "good"?
What should the answer be?
Should I say that according to my limited information which I got through the range of conversation and also through gossip ...
He is like "this"

May be the society thinks he is weird, but the same set of foolish people may claim his greatness later.So my problem has always been how do you define a human?
Sometimes I feel the philosophical answers sound perfect. Personality is just a facade which covers our true self.The true self has no attributes and is perfect.

Friday, September 05, 2008

Death

What is more scarier than one's own death?
If a person you love suffers,that is more painful than anything you ever experienced.
Your parents mortality question the very fact of your existence.Every moment becomes so precious and is capable of so much transformation.When things get taken for granted its mundane.When they start disintegrating,you realize the underlying divinity.Life offers no second chances,dont ever let the moments pass without making it acheive glory.

Saturday, August 30, 2008

Advice

Advice is supposed to help people.I have got into more problems,giving advice.My intentions are always to provide the right judgment for the situation.But it so happens that it has always backfired.Most of the time we have made up our minds to do what we want.When we ask for a suggestion, we just want the last bit of motivation to take the jump into our own desired path.When I think deeply about giving advice I also feel my insignificance.
Who am I to make decisions for someone else?

Over the years I have also learnt to accept the fact that I really dont know,the right answer.I can give advice on buying a birthday gift.But I somehow feel that giving advice on "life-problems" is scary.
One of the easiest ways of imparting required advice is to start the advice with
"If I was in your situation ....I would have done this..."
This is one of the easiest ways of being responsible while giving advice.You dont tell the person you are going to solve the problem.But you show them a way, that you would have approached it.
The most important thing in giving advice is empathy.Sometimes I have tried to put myself in the persons shoes and walk around and examine what they are going through.This is very helpful when giving advice to a person who is ill.When the body is weak,logic fails.Physical pain is far more stronger than your voice or your actions.
Every person has their own pace and cannot be hurried up.Sometimes not helping someone may be the best help.

Thursday, August 28, 2008

Wisdom

Wisdom has its own natural curve..There are no schools which can teach you how to get wise.Growing old makes us wise.The levels may not be the same but it makes everyone little more wiser.But the basic problem comes with conditioning.There is always a internal war going between conditioning and wisdom.The conditioning says you to react to situations taking inputs from the past.But wisdom diverts you in a different way.
Knowledge is also obtained through conditioning.That is the reason a person with a higher degree does not automatically develop wisdom to deal with situations.Knowledge is centered on the application.Wisdom is universal.A wise person may implement their experience into absolutely everything.But a knowlegable person(say for example a electrical engineer) can only work in that particular field.A wise enginner can make feasible solutions without going against nature(Example:Sustainable models). A knowledgable engineer will waste half of earth resources making stupid devices which are upgraded every second.(Example:Cell Phone)

Sunday, August 10, 2008

Giving and receiving

Giving is always portrayed as something really great.Receiving on the other hand is shown as being meek.Charity is taken as a virtue and the people who we are being charitable to is shown with sympathy.Asking makes us feel small.Ancient monks were made to beg for food.Whatever was given to them was to be taken with a smile of gratitude.Asking breaks down the pride of ownership we have and also things we can control.I have always suffered from great displeasure when it comes to taking favors.I feel uneasy even to ask people for help when I need it.Life cannot be lived in isolation and we need support from others for our own well being.I have tried to cultivate the value of giving but I forgot to cultivate the value of receiving.When I ask something my mind creates a divide between me and the person I ask from.There is a sudden comparison mode my mind steps into.I feel smaller and the person who provides me help becomes a larger than life figure.
Why cant my mind accept that even that person requires help from other people?
Then if the person rejects the offer and not help me,my mind gets into condemning and steps into the zone of lower self worth.As our own worth ceases to exist in trivial emotions and beliefs,the less we will get effected by the outside.

Friday, August 08, 2008

Are we alike...

I have always tried to be politically correct.I have used rational ideas and logic to stand by my beliefs.On the one hand we have such high ideals that we propose and it would be a total different story when we have to act according to it.I have had the fortunate experience of working with people from different countries.My colleagues at work are from diverse backgrounds.They are from Pakistan,Ethiopia,China,Nepal,Mexico and America.When I talk to them and share experiences I don't feel the difference.We talk at how our cultures vary,but I guess the perspective matters.I try to learn a lot about their culture and initially there is some hesitation.The breakthrough for real good conversation and starting of good friendships occurs when the barriers of color and race are broken by human emotions.When my colleagues share their expectations,fears and joys I know they are exactly like me.Underneath our differences we are same.When we want to see similarity ..we see it everywhere..When we want to see differences...we see it everywhere...Our mind is a tool...we should try to use it in the right way.

Thursday, July 31, 2008

Fame

When a beautiful flower blooms,somewhere in the amazon forest..Who observes that!!!
Trees which grow for hundreds of years,who notices their birthdays?
But why is that humans have a deep desire to get noticed.Every time we achieve something,we feel dejected ...if we don't get the required credit.Fame is transient and lasts only for a while.Celebrities do everything to hold on to their image.In everyday life people try to get noticed and do everything so that all the people around them keep buzzing their name.

Too many useless friends/relationships,wealth,personality traits and many more attributes can be used to become popular.The desire to get noticed and accepted by the other creates most of the problems.The "other" always effects us.

We wonder what "others" will say about us and we want to be superior to "others".Advertisements,standards set by society(economic and religious),moral values and also our own goals.The only way to kill the others mentality is to become aware of our intentions and motives.Does our desire and motivation come from within us?
Are our intentions worthy enough?
Answers to these questions may shatter away relationships.Personally I still fight with the "other" everyday.I still try to live away my life according to my inner motivation.But still a wave comes along and takes me away to the "others" world...

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

How honest can you get.........

Lately I have been thinking, how instantly we tell "yes" to people around us.May be at work,with family and friends,it becomes easy to mumble a "yes..I will surely do it"
But most of the time I wonder whether we have the capacity to do all that we promise.If you tell "no",then the person will be offended.If you agree to it and not do it..the person gets more offended.In one of the situations,when my friend asked me something,I was honest and told "no".Now we are not on talking terms... and I still stand by my ideals.
I confessed ,my hatred for neatness and order... to my boss.

This may look like professional and personal suicide,but the truth is, I am so relived.I don't want to make promises to anyone.I am tired of faking smiles and giving idle hope to people around me.I confess to my weakness more easily and also praise myself when needed.The doormat attitude of being nice is outdated.I think it takes more courage to say "no" and let no person run over you.Kindness,charity and helping others is important,but our own dharma/duty should be our highest priority.

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

The Economics of Relationships…

The base of a relationship is mutual self-interest. We fall in love with a person who exactly does what we want him/her to do. Our minds have set up a certain ideal for the person. The individual has to fit into that mold. When they do something different or do something contrary to our opinions then we begin to hate them. Our own ideal, which we set up, keeps changing. Our criteria keeps getting manipulated by our fickle mind. People …...to our minds are nothing but objects. We can build holy concepts around people,but when it boils down to a relationship, it is pure economics. There is nothing wrong with this idea. Many people think its crude and shun such ideas of looking at a relationship. They always want to look at life through fairy tale glasses. The motto of every business organization is that the customer has to be kept happy. They treat customers with respect and successful business-people treat customers and fellow employees with respect. But in a relationship most of the time even economical standards don’t work. Most of the people who exist in a committed relationship take the other person for granted, don’t keep them happy and forget about respect and trust. A successful business enterprise guarantees good quality of the product and their long life. A good relationship should guarantee long life and also mutual happiness.

Only two independent people can have a good relationship.
Any emotional/financial/physical dependence makes the relationship into a parasite paradise.One would dominate(mostly men) and other becomes submissive(mostly women)..this has been a trend which has continued for centuries.Even though initially parasite-relationships look as if they work,in the long run they break down.
The woman who has no image of her own and she starts searching for something to fulfill her.She lives vicariously through her children.She tries to dominate and subject the kids to all her dreams.The kids end up with psychological problems and they torture their kids and the vicious circle of doom continues.The man on the other hand tries to exercise the power on all levels.Some guys with huge complexes/self esteem issues, try to marry a girl who is quite young.They also try to choose a spouse who is not educated.Somehow they feel that, they can run the girl's life.For such guys a pet dog would be the right choice.They can train the dog more easily.
No amount of wealth and material luxuries patch up the imbalance between the man and the woman in a parasite relationship.

Thursday, July 10, 2008

Progression

How can we judge whether or not we have improved in our life?
There are few theories, which say that there is no ultimate transformation and there is no need to change ourselves. But I feel that because of our illusions that we create,we change ourselves from the perfect state.To return to our original form is transformation.We have to use the relative mind and the changing reality to define ourselves.Even though it is quite clear that we continuously change every second.We set up ideals which we think lasts for a longer time.All virtues and vices which we possess cannot exist.One way to judge progess is to see how much the mind fluctuates between misery and happiness.When we accept both and not complain or if we decrease the amount of cribbing we do,we start progressing towards better mental health.The second way of judging would be how attached or possessive we are to things and people.

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

Fear

Fear is a natural response.
I think we all need fear to survive.If we are not scared of wild animals or natural calamities we will be hunted and killed by them.Even though the world popularizes foolish ideals of bravery like jumping of bridges or doing dare devil stunts,the real battles in life are completely different.Matters pertaining to principles can storm our life and create a mess.No amount of physical danger which we have experienced and learnt from, can teach you how to face the danger which leaps within us.I can go on expeditions to mountains and amazing forests,but nothing would prepare me once I turn inward.The amount of mistakes, we commit,are far more greater than what we face in the outer reality.Diseases,worries,phobias and other demons which lurk inside us can affect us and the pain we get from them cannot be escaped.

Christopher Reeves in his biography describes how he had the wrong ideas of bravery.As a “superman”,he did all his stunts and was so confident that life could not break him or scare him.A small accident ,when he went for riding bought his life to a stop.

Saturday, June 14, 2008

What is Maya

Narada once asked Krishna …

Lord, show me Maya…

Few days passed away, Krishna asked Narada to take a trip with him to the desert.

After walking a few miles,Krishna tells Narada that he is thirsty.He asks Narada to fetch some water for him.Narada obliges and starts searching for a house where he can find water for his master.At the distant horizon, Narada could find see a well built house.He knocks on the door..A beautiful young girl opens the door.He gets mesmerized by her beauty.He starts talking to her.As the days pass by ,the talks lead to love.Narada approaches her father and asks his daughters hand for marriage.The father was overjoyed and made him a partner in the family business.As years pass by,Narada and his wife live happily.Narada's life gets filled with happiness.He becomes a proud father of two children.After his father in law passes away,Narada inherits the business and all the associated property.Twelve years roll by and there was a huge flood which strikes the desert.The beautiful house crumbles down.Narada places one of his children on his shoulders,holds the other child's hand and with also holds the hand of the trembling wife.As the force of the water pushes the child who was sitting on the shoulder, a cry of despair arises from Narada's heart.In shock he places his hands on his face and starts crying. His wife and his other child get swept away by the rushing water.
He starts crying wildly and screams for Krishna ….
Krishna appears before him ..He asks Narada whether he could find some water for him.It has been half an hour and Krishna was thirsty.Narada tells Krishna that it was 12 years and not half an hour …Then Krishna says

"This is Maya"

Thursday, June 12, 2008

Insignificance and its Implications

If I die today…it does not make any difference.I am not a pessimist.We are like components in a huge machine.If I die I will get replaced …quite easily.The company where I work,will hire someone else.My desk will be given away...My laptop will also be donated to some poor soul,who has been fighting with a desktop for a long time.My parents will miss me …but time will surely make them forget..The same it is with few of my friends also.

I remember a scene from the movie Matrix…A screen full of numbers..each number is a person…If you disappear,the system doesn't shut down.A new person will take the number.

Sunday, June 08, 2008

Only Religious People SWEAR

The art of using "Fuck" in everyday conversation
By Osho

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6D7rWLzloOI

When I was younger, I would have swear-ed with pride,if things did not go my way.Now that I am a adult..I am not able to swear...Its a handicap...if you are single,8-5 working slave for a big corporation.If you are religious, all the swear words which shall be used...would be related to sexual activity,so any words used at your enemies would give you immense pleasure.....as they would rot in hell because of bad sexual misconduct.

When you are not religious you know that there is no heaven or hell and no God..Then if you assault a person by saying "Fuck you"...Its a blessing in disguise,so that their desperate desires get fulfilled fast.

Saturday, May 31, 2008

Idealism is CRAP

There is only ANGER and more ANGER when I meet people who dont meet up my expectations.My own ideals of..how life should be,has caused me all the misery.I blame the books and the movies and the millions of songs which have promised me a perfect world.How I wish sometimes that all countries become a bunch of communists and they shoot up all artists and all people who dream.In the process even I would be dead..But then again I wont commit the crime of doing something creative(when I am dead).
This post is in direct response to the news..I watch on Television, during my lunch break...at work.Drugs,murder,sexual abuse,environmental hazards,crap,shit,everything included and many more..I complained how the world was bad..then I realized that the only solution was to not watch the news anymore.Shut it out and there are no problems.Thats the dumbest and the easiest way.I don't have all the answers...Nor do I give a DAMN to question...

Activity is an excuse

All activities in life spring out of boredom..UG Krishnamurti said it right ..when he said that the purpose of the body is to have Food and F***
The life we have ,revolves around making money.Thats what everyone does.All our lives are filled with this great purpose of making ourselves feel better using money or any other activity.

One of the most basic problems in life is boredom.Once we start getting adjusted to a place or a new life we just get bored.Life is a series of repetitions and more repetitions.

Everything is the same.

I was once reading a book called Meditations by Marcus Aurelius (the roman emperor…(shown as) …The old king in Gladiator who wanted Russell Crowe to take the crown)The book Meditations is not a book on Meditation as the name suggests.It is a book which contains the thoughts of the emperor.It was the king's wish that it should never be published.The easiest way of getting any book published is to tell people around you, not to publish it.The moment the king died..his books were published.He is worried about the world and how people behave.All his problems are identical to the problems we face now-a-days..So nothing has changed.All minds are alike.All people suffer from the same problems.Our mind gets bored and wants something to grab.If there are no problems then we create problems.My problems have not changed either.The same questions I had years back still linger on.I wanted to be a scientist and solve few of the problems.But science has no answers just random assumptions.Science loves complexity…and if you search for complexity …it exits everywhere.
I lost my faith in religion..then I discovered science..I lost my faith in science I discovered…spirituality..

I lost my faith in spirituality and I discovered..how foolish I was to have faith on anything in the first place..

I think the band Linkin Park got it right ,when they sang "At the end …it doesn't matter"

Saturday, May 24, 2008

Don’t Turn Back and see

There seems no way I can remember what I was yesterday
Everything has vanished in one day
There seems no end to this whole misery
Which has crept into me today
I told myself I wont look back
But I turn around and look anyways!!!

Thursday, May 08, 2008

Hope

The only way to have hope in life is to be hope-less.
Why should we be positive and expect all the "good" things happen to us.What is the use of going to a place of worship and begging favors from God.Wont God bestow equal favors on everyone.If as a student I write my exam badly and pray to God to pass me...Then there is the professor who is also praying to God and saying that he should grade the papers properly so that there are no cases against him for his negligence.So on who's side will God be.Whatever happens does not happen for the good..It just happens...Having a positive image in our mind we compare our miserable situation with the positive image.The image keeps changing and like a dog we keep running back of it.But I dont think there will any end to it.Having the expectation that the running will stop is also a expectation.That also gives us hope.

Friday, May 02, 2008

Social Change

I want the world to change according to my own petty fancies.I want to wipe poverty,AIDS and cancer.I want to educate millions of poor girls in India.
"There is no need to worry …I am not joining Indian politics "

My Experience with service was as follows…
1.Kindness - My kindness experiments went down the drain as I belive my nature itself is that of anger...I have complaints against everyone.Trying to force kindness on myself was like the experience people would have if they are in a dentist's chair.
2 Feeling better- My ego always gets a good boost .Whenever I do some service ,I develop a halo around my head…for the next few days.Its so shocking how people waste loads of money on creams to get the glow.
3.Influence of Mother Teresa/Gandhi –I was hypnotized early on by Gandhi.He had a stronger hold on my mind than my parents.Even though I was a engineer,deep down somewhere I belived that the spinning wheel can save the world.The things people can do to you from the grave is scary.
Mother Teresa was a huge influence on me.The fact that she donated a apple at an young age was something which blew my minds off.When I was young I used to hide chocolates from everyone.I was denied admission in a school because of my excessive attachments to choclates.So whenever I used to serve I used to feel like I was one step closer in becoming Mother Teresa.The silly thing was I can never become like Mother Teresa because she was a Norwegian and I am a Indian.So all my efforts at donating money,biscuts,books to become like her, went out of the window because of citizenship problems.
4.Depression
If I suffered from Depression I used to volunteer.When I used to see other people in worser conditions I used to help them.I felt better because they were miserable.Poverty actually cured my depression.
5.Conversation
Volunteer service becomes a good topic for breaking the ice…whenever I meet strangers on flights etc..
God/Temples are good ice breakers too.I have zero knowledge about both so I always chose volunteer service as conversation starters
6 Employment
It can also be seen internship experience by employers.(I added it in my resume)
7.Food/other benefits
Normally you get fed really well by organizations if you are volunteering.You may get some free stuff too.Temples in USA have that advantage too.Most of the time I meet people who are religions,they tell me of the greatness of Dosa or different varieties of rice available.One temple I personally recommend for good Tamil food is Meenakshi Temple in Houston.I am yet to meet "religious"people who tell me about God or about mental peace they obtained when they went to a temple.
If temples should have more attendance I feel they should open a Mc.Donalds outlet there.
8.Well Behaved People:
You meet nicer people.Even if they have deep hate for you, they smile outwardly because everyone is working for a good cause which can make the world a better place.


Personally I feel the very need to serve, if got from the desire to feel better about yourself …..Is the worst desire a human can have.
We always want to feel better and become superior to others.Sympathy/pity/empathy and all these emotions are not strong enough to motivate a person to serve.If they were strong enough then the world wont have so many problems.Every single time we serve its like filling a bottomless tank with water.Its gone …Its wasted…There is no difference done.When this idea really sinks into us that we don't make a difference then it's the best kind of service.The ego does not claim its greatness and you don't become a super kind individual suffering for the world.After realizing this,if there is still a desire to serve,then I guess service would be a right path....

Monday, April 28, 2008

Overcoming Depression

I get depressed for various reasons…Sometimes it is because of the weather conditions.Constant sunshine cheers me up.So when I stayed at Texas for the past two years it was really nice.Even if I was terribly depressed …the nature around me lifted my spirits.I cannot bear cold/freezing/rainy/hailing/snowing places…They make me gloomy.As if fate wanted me to learn a lesson ,I am working at a place which hardly sees the sun.There is sunshine for only few hours in a week at the maximum…To make it more pleasant for me , this year my place is skipping summer.

There are lot of ways to overcome depression.Most of them are external stimuli given to you in a nice package.I have followed lot of these techniques to get out of depressed states.Only two good solutions have worked out for me.First is community service.When we see others suffering …our suffering looks so tiny in comparison.The second method is the "stupid method".Love depression and stay clam.It will leave you eventually.Either depression leaves or your body leaves.(Inappropriate joke!!! )

If you are the kind of person who has seen intense depression then it is evident, that our mind goes in predictable cycles.We get bogged down for some general scenarios.For me it is moral/ethical/justice oriented values.If I am stuck in a problem in which someone else does not take a right moral stand ..it makes me deeply angry.In the same way , I guess everyone in the world has something which turns them off.But if you are served the same scenario with different people and few more complexities added in ..we get vexed and then ultimately slip into depression.There are also other reasons for depression ..like death,financial crisis,spiritual crisis,boredom,loneliness,too many people around to bug you…etc..

To raise higher than our thoughts/emotions is a very difficult process.To reach a level where we neglect our thought process is even more difficult.This is the reason why positive statements don't make us very happy when we are depressed.It helps you a little bit by giving hope but it does not cure you.Positive thoughts are fed to the mind and we can train the mind to be positive for a while but once the mind gets de-hypnotized it slips back into a depressive state.The only thing which helps us is Action.You may have a thought which says that you are worthless, but then again you can act your way towards success. The body cannot take severe emotions.It gets agitated and becomes weak.We can get affected by severe diseases and sometimes even tumors/cancers are a result of deep depression.(Subject to speculation…All medical studies are bound to change every two hours)
Mental analysis rarely cure depression.If they could cure, then psychotherapists would have been billionaires.(they have become millionaires!!!).I don't see any reason why we have this ideal in our head that life one day will be without problems.Even Buddha made it clear that "Life is suffering" and the only way out for him was meditation and acceptance of impermanence.The only foolproof way to combat depression is to work diligently even when we are not depressed.To constantly check our motives and our expectations.To let it go when the time comes.No regrets, no grievances.

Sunday, April 27, 2008

My blog

I thank everyone who take the time to read and comment on my blog.If anyone looks at the series of the posts it revolves on the following themes..
1.Birth/Death
2.Desire
3.Thought/Knowledge/Emotion
4.Devotion/Service/Realization
5.Practical Implications of Advaita Vedanta/Buddhism
6.Social Issues(Dealing with India)

The theories of Advaita and Buddhism may look contradictory.Adviata hits directly on the issues of Moksha whereas Buddhism deals with the issues related to the body/emotions/thoughts.
All paths lead to the truth.Anything which is false ...will fall away eventually.I wanted to honestly write about what I feel/believe/imagine...In no way ...I say that, I have knowledge about scriptures of any religion/path.What I write should always be taken as spiritual entertainment.
I have no strong hold on the English vocabulary/grammar..most of my posts will have huge errors..Language is always a barrier and so are words...Words have no use...As is the case with silence...

Old age/death

Its so amazing how we think and plan for the future as if we are going to last forever.But the truth is any moment we may leave away everything.Sometimes this truth deeply sinks into me and I start grabbing all my ambitions and try to calculate what I have done.But death is the best remedy for all of us.It wipes our slates clean.To think about future for me looks like a pain because I am constantly aware that death sits on my shoulder.It may look like a pessimistic view on life that I associate my future with death.But it occurs at so many levels...Only thing is our society gives so much importance to being young...that we forget death...
In ancient times death/old age was given its due respect.In Indian tradition we respect every old person as a wise person..even if he/she is a beggar/cheat...I find stillness and divinity in older people faces.Its quite opposite to popular culture ...that I find old people faces attractive.Starting from my grandmother,I used to feel each wrinkle on her face is a testimonial of the hardships and the joy she has seen in her life...Old is always gold...

Absence of Emotions

Can we lose the ability to have simple emotions.Is emotional deadening a mark of a evolved person.Most of the religious/spiritual books do tell us how everything related to emotion is useless.Our jealousy,pride,sadness or happiness is the same.Sometimes I cannot feel any emotion.My body becomes like a machine reacting and acting towards external stimuli.Does that say I am in a better state than before?

The Ignorance of Knowledge

Knowledge is seen as power.We use this power in lot of hidden ways.The moment we feel we have acquired some knowledge…we need to use it.We use it by making it show our greatness by making others feel lower.We ask stupid questions and go around in circles so that we can satisfy our own puffed ego's.We aim for greater degrees and lesser use.I think Mahatama Gandhi was right when he spoke of the nation's future is in the hands of heartless intellectuals.Knowledge if true should attempt to destroy the shackles of ego.It makes you more humble.The aim of an individual should be to provide a balance between sound judgement and love .Absence of emotion should not be the result of knowledge.True knowledge makes you treat everyone in the same way as you would treat your loved ones

My mind is like a monkey

The problem with my mind…sorry all minds…Is they keep jumping around…we like to make problems ,we like to analyze and we like to find solutions…and frame new questions…But trying to quieten... is not a natural process.

Saturday, April 26, 2008

Destruction

Whenever you think of progressing on the path of higher consciousness there is a lot of destruction.We have to be ready mentally and physically ... all things will get badly affected.Mentally we may sink into depression which may last sometimes for years until we get adjusted to the growth.Physically the intense self search gives rise to increase in severe body aches and high fevers.All relationships go for a toss because we are not interested in anyone other than ourselves and our search.When the divine self becomes more important somehow the worldly occupations don't seem important.May be that is the reason various orders of monks/spiritual institutions were formed to give support for people who are in the seeking mode.Personally I feel we need support ..but this should never make us a parasite.Take help so that you can stand on your own two feet.Some of the scriptures write that once we start to seek ,the karma starts evaporating quickly and we may have very painful things happen to us.But all these occurrences are quite common and they should not push anyone to take extreme measures.If you are truly committed to the search then you will hold the body and use the body to achieve realization.

Friday, April 18, 2008

Desire

Desire is the same..It creeps in and makes us very desperate.All the theories of illusion and reality may exist.But none of them have any practical use to the society in general.The world runs with the principles made by foolish men/women.How can you live in the world and stay as if you are not going to act through any of the world principles.Its like a game you are playing....and you have to follow the rules to be in the game.
If you exist on the planet then you have to belong to a country.You are not going to say that i don't belong anywhere.Even if the earth is not flat ... it gives a impression that it is flat .Thats the reason we use 2 dimensional maps.It makes life easier to have the illusion that earth is flat.A 3 dimensional map will surely confuse you to no end.Coming to the ever lasting question of enlightenment ..If it has to happen and there is a need for it ...it will happen on its own way...
Thats what I have realized ...No need of breaking your head on stupid analogies.But if you have a desire to follow a particular method then i don't think its good to suppress it.Any method like devotion,yoga or meditation....let it act and nature will take its course...It will ruin you and at the same time your desire will get extinguished.

Having no Expectations

Having no expectations is a unreal state.I tried so hard not to have any attachment to the results.I have never succeeded in it.All the holy books can say and tell us to remain detached but to me that is not working.I am a first grade sinner and I agree to it heartfully.My mind always is greedy and it only aims for things which can satisfy my ego.People,things,ambition all are useful to me only after I have analyzed what I can obtain from them.In my whole life I have never committed any action for the heck of it.Its always like an economic transaction.I need to know what I can obtain and then I move forward.

The only way I could remain detached was when I never gave a damn about the action itself.So when I performed something and let it go …it was only because my mind got involved with something else.Some thing ,some desire…clouded my eyes so much that I forgot to sit and think about the result.So my conclusion about the detachment theory is that we have to use child psychology on ourselves.If you are with a child and you give them candy they would never think about other things .Same way you don't want to think about result show yourself some religious/spiritual/materialistic candy and your mind will never think of the result.You can float in your divine world thinking you achieved a new stage of greatness…but the truth is just that its "child psychology" performed on adults..

Sunday, April 13, 2008

Lust

Lust is the most common emotion I guess we all feel.I mean till the day you are going to die... you have lust of differnt intensities.Lust has always been seen as something very negative and the society tries to paint bad pictures about the most evident emotion we feel.When you are attracted to a person it should be clear on what basis the foundation of your felling is based.Physically we are attracted to a person and we may dream of having a pleasurable relation.Mentally we get attracted,Spiritually we get attracted , all these things are the same thing.How can we rate and say that the physical is the least,then comes mental attraction and then spiritual attarction.
Most of the time the physical attarction fades away..so does the other mental and spiritual attarction.The problem is not with the other person ...the problem is with our minds.We always want some pleasure ...we hunt for pleasure...in every way ..in every person...in every opppurtunity...
If you lust for a person ...please go ahead and say it loud..that you do..you are human ...and thats why you feel it!!!

Wednesday, April 02, 2008

Just some random thoughts

Our present self is a creation of our own ideas of what we want to be.All the ancient texts have thrown light upon the fact that we are what we think and imagine.Everything is a repetitive process.Knowledge itself can be a mere illusion of someone else.Starting from when a kid is taken the first steps into school,we program ourselves to be able to function well as humans.All knowledge becomes unnecessary when we realize that in some way or another the laws formulated don't work.Everything has a limitation and is subject to change.The answer of permanence and of unification theories of science have never seen the light of day.If one parameter is changed ..all the parameters change with it naturally and a constant system can never be obtained.So to give so much importance to mind games and assimilation of knowledge will be foolish.But then again how do we define our natural inclinations.As a person we are inclined to certain areas in our existence.Prodigies can never be explained.Deja-vu's cannot be defined by any common theory.Reincarnation cannot be a good solution.Life cannot be explained…words cannot define it.If life alone can never be explained, then how can death be explained…Sometimes I feel getting scared of death is like getting scared of our own shadows.Shadows exist as long as the person exists.As long as light shines on us and blinds us..we see our own shadows and get scared.If this explanation I have given can take out the fear of death ,then everything would be just great.But this does not happen …as the fear continues..Its not the fear of death…but fear itself!!!!

Friday, March 28, 2008

The path to God

Initially when religion was introduced to me as a kid,it was more like an business deal.I say some Sloka/mantra, for a particular number of times and my desires could be fulfilled.I followed it faithfully for a large part of my life.I was always afraid of some bad deals from God if I messed up any part of the mantra.As a kid I have prayed sometimes whole nights so that I would be in the good books of the Gods.I targeted few Gods and by-hearted few easy and powerful mantras and was a contended customer.At the same time when I was going through the devotional phase I used to be moved by the plight of beggars at the temple doorstep.To me entering a temple was like entering a court of justice.I calculated the bribes I wanted to offer God and decided what I would receive in return.But as I was reaching the age of 15 I started questioning the motives which lay behind my devotion.My faith on God was as long as God could fulfill the desires I had.This over dependence on God was always there.Even though I used to be interested in Buddhism and read other religious theories..my dependence was like a addiction.I ran towards it every time I had a problem.The time was getting ripe for me to leave all these transactions.So when out of sheer accident,I visited a temple, when I was 18 ...I pleaded God to pass me in one of the exams.I decided that if that would happen I would chant something umpteen number of times.I passed that exam but I never chanted.My relationship with this Godfather kind of God started getting sour.I could not deny the fact that God was not helping the billions who were suffering.Slowly I started to discover a new kind of God.This God never asked for holy chants or bribes.Never wanted me to visit "expensive " temples.This God only helped me see myself the way I am.

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

Spiritual Stages





Taken from the site
http://www.spiritualresearchfoundation.org/spiritualresearch/spiritualscience/spirituallevel_saints/images/Spiritual-Level-March06.gif
courtesy:Venkat

Acceptance!!!!

I think I have written a lot about how we should accept ourselves and our circumstances.But there is a huge other side to acceptance..Non acceptance is as important as acceptance.When we accept wrong versions of what we are through the perceptions of others...we are doomed!!!
But there is no way that we can escape these wrong notions.Every second we have some image hitting us through our minds.The only way through,is losing the way.Once we have constantly struggled through all the wrong ways...our soul would have suffered enough.There will be no more struggle.We just let it go and go on a path which is of least resistance.

Sunday, March 23, 2008

Obstacles in Relationship..

Many people try not to get attached and live in a kind of shell surrounded by the ocean of people.This policy of trying to forcibly be away from people is not healthy.Its not detachment in any sense.Fear of attachment is not detachment ..it is cowardice.If fear of any kind exists then we are again attached to fear itself.So its not the people we meet we get attached too.It is only deep seated fear of pain.Pain and pleasure are the same thing.Just a momentary sharp emotion which can give rise to different sensations in the body.The pain/pleasure occurs in the mind first and then the body responds to it.If we get hurt because we are attached we start crying.The body follows the mind.But the mind is fickle and if shown something more pleasurable we run again behind that forgetting the pain.True detachment does not mean we ignore the person or try not to maintain any relationship...Being truly detached means we treat every person in the same way ...everyone becomes special.Detachment is also a process ...When every living being is given the same amount of respect as our beloved then we have become truly detached.
Practically is it possible to live without getting worried about the other person?
I feel that most of the time when we take care of the mental processes of our own mind ..everything just falls into place...Every problem in a relationship is again a reflection of problem within us.Cultivation of Aloneness is the best solution to most of the problems in our relationships.

Thursday, March 20, 2008

Spiritual land

Most of my own spiritual pursuits was to run away from the present situation.There is nothing more contradictory to my life than this feeling that I belong somewhere else.The events which have never happened to me look so wonderful.The places which I have never visited look so beautiful.The people who I have never met look amazing.This feeling to never accept anything is again a desire ...this desire should also be accepted.I feel this feeling is born when the mind gets a voice.Always there is some hidden treasure ...always there is a chase...
This other probable world with perfect people,amazing beauty,non polluted and with equal rights does not exist.Claims that this promised land exists has made billions of people believers in everything.But to reach a point where this realization sinks in takes lot of effort.Once we travel through the wheel of life we find out how everything...how every relationship is fake..Once these boundaries are broken we dont long for spiritual lands or spiritual people.

Person-Personality

Every incident in our life brings out a different personality.There is no constant personality within us.Its just the projection of our thoughts which we feel defined to a particular personality.Once we forget identifying ourselves with some basic structure,we free ourselves from lot of emotional burden.We train our minds to look at ourselves in a certain way.We get hurt when our own image gets proven wrong by others projections.But the other's projections are also are own projections.Knowledge even when got from others is again our knowledge..as we use our limited minds to understand the situations.

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

Getting Lost

There are always instants when life becomes so busy that we forget what we should really do.On my recent trip to New York I have come to realize what anxiety means.Starting from the grieving faces in the subways,angry hip-hopper and to the late professionals who are rushing towards a never ending deadline.Anxiety is not what we are really missing but the feeling that we are going to miss something.

Wednesday, March 05, 2008

Reflection of passion

I wrote this while listening to yanni "Reflections of passion"
Passion exists for a minute.. we make it a memory and hold it on for ever...


As the gush of air plays with your hair
As you dance in joy at the brilliance of silence
The inward jot of finding someone new
The dawning of a new era
New dreams like tiny waves of a mighty ocean form
The spirits rose so high that all divisions look invisible
Plans were chalked out to make life ,more pleasurable
These things happen so fast and you feel insecure,you weep with joy
The impermanence of nature starts following you
Everything which was exicting gets you into a rut
Then suddenly everything breaks
All that is left are the reflections of our passion

Sunday, March 02, 2008

Can Men and Women Be Friends?

I was having a debate with one of my friends(guy)as to the possibility of friendship between men and women.

From my perspective it is possible for men and women to be friends.If I was interested in a guy in any other way I wont pretend to be friends with him in the first place.To me being honest with myself is very important.All the books/spiritual techniques ...everything goes down the drain when we ourselves have no idea of defining what a relationship is and what are the limitations we place upon them.Personally I feel I have the necessary discipline to remain with my own ideals/beliefs.But the possibility of the other person not being so inclined and having other agendas besides friendship always exits.But then again whenever I have had a platonic friendship I have made it clear to the guy that I just want to be Friends.I have no intention to increase the bounds of the friendship.

I remember a small instance from the life of the philosopher UG Krishnanmurti(paraphrased)

There was once a woman who had entered the room and sat in front of UG.She was staring at him and had different interests other than philosophy.There was no exchange of words between UG and the lady.When she was leaving UG just told her the following words
"I know you are attracted to me ..but let me guarantee you,that nothing is going to happen.You are wasting your time,I have enough discipline in me which is enough for both of us.


That is the attitude which actually can foster a successful friendship between men and women.As a person we need to have discipline and clear set goals.If that is not possible then the friendship should not be continued.The problem in a friendship between men and women is not lust but dishonesty and absence of integrity.

A good article from pyschology today
http://psychologytoday.com/articles/pto-20010901-000031.html

Tuesday, February 26, 2008

Astrology...Curse or cure

I have always had an interest in Astronomy.But whenever I mention it to any Indian,99.9% of them think its astrology that I am talking about.I feel any person who seriously thinks Astrology can save their lives ,should go and take a appointment from the nearest shrink available.Its like a never ending battle with superstitions.Now vastu shastra,feng shui and loads of other channels are present to save our lives from misery.In a country like India where people dont have small huts to stay happy..there are millions of people paying loads of rupees to have good flow of energy in their comfortable homes.A mind unlit by reason cannot be saved by anyone.It will lead you to destruction like slow poison.

Words from Vivekananda taken from
"Man the maker of his destiny"
http://sboray.tripod.com/Srinidhi/vivek.html

There is an old story of an astrologer who came to a King and said. "You are going to die in six months." The King was frightened out of his wits and was almost about to die then and there from fear. But his minister was a cleaver man, and this man told the king see that they were fools. The king would not believe him. So the minister saw no other way to make the king se that they were fools, but to invite the astrologer to the palace again. There he asked him if his calculations were correct. The astrologer said that there could be not a mistake, but to satisfy him he went through the whole of the calculations again and then said that they perfectly correct,. The king's face became livid. The minister said to the astrologer, "And when do you think you will die?". " In twelve years", was the reply. The minister quickly drew his sword and separated the astrologer's head from the body and said to the king. "Do you see this liar? He is dead


I think the Greeks first took astrology to India and took from the Hindus the science of astronomy and carried it back with them to Europe. Because in India you will find old altars, made according to a certain geometrical plan, and certain things had to be done when the stars were in when certain positions, therefore I think the Greeks gave the Hindus astrology, and the Hindus gave them astronomy.

In London, a young man used to come to me and ask me, "What will become of me next year?" I asked him why he asked me so." I have lost all my money and have become very, very poor". Money is the only God of many beings. Weak men, when they lose everything and feel themselves weak, try all sorts of uncanny methods of making money, and come to astrology and all these things. " It is the coward and the fool who says, "This is fate'" - so says the Sanskrit proverb. But it is the strong man who stands up and says, "I will make my fate." It is people who are getting old who talk of fate. Young men generally do not come to astrology. We may be under planetary influence, but it should not matter much to us. Buddha says, "Those that get a living by calculations of the stars by such art and other lying tricks are to be avoid"; and he ought to know, because he was the greatest Hindu ever born. Let stars come, what harm is there? If a star disturbs my life, it would not be worth a cent. You will find that astrology and all these mystical things are becoming prominent in our minds, we should see a physician, take good food and rest.

If you can get an explanation of phenomena from within its nature, it is nonsense to look for an explanation from outside. If the world explains itself, it is nonsense to go outside for an explanation. Have you found any phenomenon in the life of a man that you have ever seen which cannot be explained by the power of the man himself? So what is the use of going to the stars or anything else in the world? My own Karma is sufficient explanation of my present state. So in the case of Jesus himself. We know that his father was only a carpenter. We need not go to anybody else to find an explanation of his own power. He was the outcome of his own past, all of which was a preparation for that Jesus. Buddha goes back and back to animal bodies and tells us how he ultimately became Buddha. So what is the use of going to stars for explanation? They may have a little influence; but it is our duty to ignore them rather than hearken to them and make ourselves nervous. This I lay down as the first essential in all I teach: anything that brings spiritual, mental, or physical weakness, touch it not with the toes of your feet.

Indian Ancient Literature and View of Women Part 1

I have always wondered why women in all cultures were subjugated so a lesser role.How did the world end up being a male dominated place.If you have to understand the present we have to dig up the facts of the past.I dont say its a male propaganda to wipe out the female race out of the planet.But then again history points us to that direction.
Caution:If there are any deviations in the post presented below...Please let me know...Historical accuracy is much appreciated.Male chauvinists ..stay away!!!


Most of the ancient Indian books have so much hatred for woman.Women were shown in such a bad light.
What is the use of being a spiritual motherland ??
What is the use of having literary gaints?


Untruthfulness,rashness,guile,studpidity,avarice,uncleaniness and cruelty are woman's seven natural flaws of a woman.
The wife with offensive face should be given up.
Source Chankaya Niti Sastra


Day and night women must be kept in dependence by the males (of) their (families), and, if they attach themselves to sensual enjoyments, they must be kept under one’s control.

Her father protects (her) in childhood, her husband protects (her) in youth, and her sons protect (her) in old age; a woman is never fit for independence.

Though destitute of virtue, or seeking pleasure (elsewhere), or devoid of good qualities, (yet) a husband must be constantly worshipped as a god by a faithful wife.

laws of Manu


In the pre-Sankara period, Hinduism was a religion filled with foolish rituals.It was more a tribal land with Vedas stil existant but never considered seriously by common lay man/woman.(even now that is the case)
Buddha brought a welcome change to India and propagated giving women equal status as men.Buddha was not opposed to the vedas,but he was opposed to foolish rituals.Common example of that would be ..
Women were able to light the funeral pyre..In Hinduism only males get to do it.Buddha did not allow females to become nuns.He was worried about the safety of the nuns..as in those days forests were ruled by dacoits.But history tells us that Buddha did agree to let women become nuns after some persuasion from his mother and wife.

Saturday, February 23, 2008

Religion

Religion is not a good word to define our preferences .What we eat, how we behave, how we react or to believe in a higher power or not , can never be defined by religion alone. We as humans have diverse interests and our behavior is shaped due to our attitudes and affinities. May be the whole approach to isolate us into one religion is very irrational. I liked what Dalai Lama's view on religion is he compares different religions to a table with different varieties of food. When a person wants to eat he/she takes little of different varieties and in the quantity he/she likes.
Instead of providing a space in applications/forms, where you should enter a particular religion.. there should be more space provided to write a paragraph on your basic beliefs. That gives a more general insight into the person .If the person whole heartedly believes in one single religion ..then he/she can write down the name of the single religion. By doing this we can reduce the different barriers we create starting from how we identify ourselves.

I love reading about other religions. even ancient/ tribal religions included. Most of the religions have a foundation set out by another religion. All the religious fanatics don’t read history and have no interest in archeology. If they could dig little bit into the past centuries they will know why the world is shaped up this way. I feel any belief system which says that the other belief system is inferior or superior is going to end up in forming into a cult society. All religions are assimilation of the practices of the native people. When we discriminate the minor sects present in a religion we are contradicting the principles which built the religion in the first place. The problem of caste system which is present in Indian system is in itself a contradiction. Most of the people understand and interpret caste in their own limitations. But I am confident that caste system was not formed to discriminate but it was a effective tool for finding out the occupation of a person. But it gets used for the wrong purpose and again a system is used to make life miserable instead of simplifying things.
Religion went a whole circle of uplifting a person and improving the society but it caused lot of destruction also. Now the place of religion is taken by science.

Friday, February 22, 2008

English Un - Learned

from a forwarded mail

The European Commission has just announced an agreement whereby English will be the official language of the European Union rather than German, which was the other possibility.

As part of the negotiations, the British Government conceded that English spelling had some room for improvement and has accepted a 5- year phase-in plan that would become known as 'Euro-English'.

In the first year, 's' will replace the soft 'c'. Sertainly, this will make the sivil servants jump with joy. The hard 'c' will be dropped in favour of 'k'. This should klear up konfusion, and keyboards kan have one less letter There will be growing publik enthusiasm in the sekond year when the troublesome 'ph' will be replaced with 'f'. This will make words like fotograf 20% shorter.

In the 3rd year, publik akseptanse of the new spelling kan be expekted to reach the stage where more komplikated changes are possible.

Governments will enkourage the removal of double letters which have always ben a deterent to akurate speling.

Also, al wil agre that the horibl mes of the silent 'e' in the languag is disgrasful and it should go away.

By the 4th yer people wil be reseptiv to steps such as
replasing 'th' with 'z' and 'w' with 'v'.

During ze fifz yer, ze unesesary 'o' kan be dropd from vords kontaining 'ou' and after ziz fifz yer, ve vil hav a reil sensi bl riten styl.

Zer vil be no mor trubl or difikultis and evrivun vil find it ezi tu understand ech oza. Ze drem of a united urop vil finali kum tru.

Und efter ze fifz yer, ve vil al be speking German like zey vunted in ze forst plas.

Monday, February 18, 2008

Meditation and Contradiction


Life is always full of contradictions.Nations build weapons to maintain peace.The other day when I visited Vipasanna meditation center (www.dhamma.org) in Georgia,I witnessed a contradiction of ideals.

Buddha gave his first discourse on Vipasanna meditation in a deer park.The deer is used as a symbol of initiation (of disciples)and the wheel of dharma was made to roll from that day.The property which lies beside the meditation centre is a hunting ground.In the western culture hunting is an essential sport.During the hunting season everything that moves is killed(No exaggeration here)
On one side there are people who try to save insects and not harm them.Then on the other side of the fence there are people who kill for fun.

Our maturity lies in accepting the various contradictions which rise up in our lives.By ignoring one side and supporting the other turns us into a (ideal) fanatic.

Friday, February 08, 2008

Knowledge is power

There are lots of questions which as individuals we need to answer.There is so much knowledge in the world that it may take several lifetimes to even comprehend the enormity of it.I feel knowledge ..any knowledge is not power.Depending upon our own affinities knowledge about specific activities/ things becomes a powerful weapon to take out ignorance.
We have to be selective even about the knowledge we acquire.Filling more crap in our minds makes life more complicated.We need knowledge so that we can live like sane creatures and also be able to fulfill our duties as a responsible human beings
One example is the English language...
Do we really need to know so many words?
Why cant the world be a happy place with limited vocabulary.I have a allergy towards all those people who show-off their enormous vocabulary.Every day new words are added.To the future word-smiths ,words are beautiful creations like music.But to a ignoramus like me, its just waste of digital bits and paper space :)
If Shakespeare could be contended with a limited vocabulary of 4000 words..I guess the new generation should not be burdened with enormous dictionaries.When learning happens without any expectations ...we become truly learned.Most of the time in common conversations, people only use slang for everyday conversation.Then in the professional atmosphere the language is polished with some neat words obtained from some online dictionary.This divergence in our own speech,thoughts and behavior is our need to create a personality.I feel spirituality/religion should give people the strength to express what they are...what they really are

Thursday, February 07, 2008

The story of Stuff

The story of stuff

http://www.storyofstuff.com/

American consumerism has been defined so well by this video.India's economy is improving so well.Now that American products are reaching Indian soil and there are more tie ups with American companies I feel the American economic rules will start hitting Indian soil.
Traditional Indian small scale industries may be destroyed by foolish exported economic rules.
This video was very interesting because of the environmental concerns.
Personally I was trying to imagine all the stuff I had accumulated in the past 2 years.I really dont need so much stuff but I have collected it.So may be aware consumerism is required so that we cause less harm to ourselves and environment.

Tuesday, February 05, 2008

We make our own memories

Our own attitudes decide what our perception is.Then when we store it as a memory, we color it with our own biases.When we meet a new person(most of the time)we make a preconceived notion of how they are.Everyday events are seen through our own limited knowledge.When we are young, any event which would have shocked us,may not be that scary now.But sometimes we shade it with nightmares and then it is going to be scary even in our adult life.So the problem is we may never know what really happened.All our memories are our creations.
Each memory causes a emotion.We should question the deep rooted cause for our suffering or happiness which is obtained from our memories.I am not saying that release from suffering only happens when there is a absence of a past/memory.The solution lies in our understanding of our own emotions.When we are able to look back at our misery and say to ourselves that its inevitable and then question the reason...then we are on a path to understanding.

Tuesday, January 29, 2008

Self Improvement

When I joined the university to pursue a masters degree my aim was to get my life into a stable mode.I thought that by following society standards and scaling up my levels to include a higher degree will somehow equip me with more knowledge to deal with life.I have been wondering how following our heart requires tremendous amount of courage!Its not only breaking the societal norms but it also taking chances in our personal life.As humans we are supposed to plan what we are going to do for the next decade... so that we offer stability to everyone around us.I am no way smarter than what I was 2 years back.

What I feel I learned ...
I now have a more diplomatic way of dealing with people.
I cover some of the hard truth with professional lies.
I have learnt to deal with people better.
But the most important learning process (in life)is to learn to be independent.When we can love ourselves and depend on ourselves for love ..we have attained the highest level...Every other degree or knowledge is actually a waste.

Saturday, January 12, 2008

Life and its purpose

There is a question at least,a few of us keep asking ourselves.
Is there a purpose to life?
We try to seek a purpose and build a purpose through our narrow visions.
But mostly its not a purpose we are searching.We are just bored and we feel there is something exciting waiting for us.We are waiting for some great miracle to happen which will put all the pieces of the puzzle together and make it whole.May be its high time we throw purpose out of the window.
This is all there is !!!

Tuesday, January 08, 2008

Music ....IS UNIVERSAL

I check the Top 20 singles in USA.
Most of the common themes in most of the music videos are

love,pain caused because of love(FAILURES),sex,pleasure,hatred on the boy friend/girl friend,loneliness,anger....
I check the Top 10 songs in India..

Hindi

The common themes
love,lost love ,lust,sex...

Tamil
The common themes
Love,lust....sex.

The instrumental music in all languages is quite refined and breaks all these barriers.But the publicity given to them is minimal.

Purpose/No purpose

Jaane kya dhoondata hain mera dil
tujko kya chahaye zindagi
raaste hi raaste hain
kasisa hai yeh safar..

It is necessary that our life should have a purpose.
The "so called" purpose is obtained in continuity.We take our past events and try to connect it and try to find divine meaning through that.We are told to look at the big picture.But our memory fails us.We interpret everything in our life with our limited knowledge and maturity.The perception is through a range of filters.Every event may be a independent event.It may not be a continuity to the before event.We all are waiting for a finale for our life.The final show where everything will be revealed and there will nothing else to know.Most of us think that somehow before our death we will come to know that.We create the world through our own prejudices and judgments.

One of the way of reducing the barriers of knowing reality is to give up the knowledge.
(Paraphrased from U.G Krishnamurti's words..He does not mind it..There is no copy right!!!)

This is not easy because we become empty.Our sense of importance is gone.Our education system works in the opposite way .We want more knowledge to prove our importance.It is one of the biggest paradoxes of life.On one hand we want to know the purpose and then again we don’t want to let go of our imagined purpose.

Thursday, December 27, 2007

Everything is a belief

Everything is a belief
I examined all my motives
I am conditioned to behave in certain ways
I change and I dont know what I am going to become
Everything I believe feels real
My dreams are also real
The Germans invaded my bedroom and shot fifteen bullets
I pretended to be dead...but they could not be deceived
I dont say beliefs are real or unreal
I just say that Everything is a belief...
p.s
The poem sucks...but has a deep meaning somewhere(I hope it has)

Monday, December 10, 2007

What made me grow

All people cringe at the idea of having to deal with difficult people.But those are the real people who help us grow.Our enemies give us a chance to develop nonviolence.Their hate gives us a chance to develop patience and love.People who cheat you,are the people who teach you what honesty is.The un-ethical teach you to walk on the path of righteousness.
Most of the time I write testimonials to people who are good to me.
But today I want to thank .....all my enemies,the people who hate me,people who cheated me and let me not forget all the people who have abused me.

Friday, December 07, 2007

One step away from fanatism

Every method ,every theory,every belief and every experince ,which we follow can become a bondage.A method may liberate you and the next second you own it.. it creates its own bondage.
According to Osho we may give up attachment to worldly desires and become attached to other worldly objects such as a kind of meditation,a personal God .....

Once we use a technique to achieve something lets remember to throw it away and forget it.If we are not careful we also fall in the same class of religious fundamentalists.Once the inner world gets impure it slowly manifests itself in the outer world through out actions

Thursday, December 06, 2007

Indian Education System

No other country in the world would be making as many blunders as the Indian education system makes.We still follow the British system.The British have left but our minds are still chained to the inferiority that they cultivated in us.Vedas should be taught in Indian schools.Vedic mathematics,astronomy,science and philosophy should be included in the syllabus along with the western invasions.I have added three videos about the vedas which show the superiority of the knowledge we possessed in the past.The Aryan theory of invasion was also devised to prove that Indians were fools.But even the Pythagoras theorem was discovered in India 300 years before Pythagoras was born.He came down to ganges and learnt it.All the famous theoritical physicists like Heisenberg and others have been influenced by Advaita Vedanta.The principle of uncertainity can be easily derived from Advaita Vedanta.I once heard that Kautilya's Arthasastra is being used at Harvard.Kamasutra is the only one which gets the popularity.But there are various other sutras which have lot of knowledge hidden in them.
Its high time the world gives back the dignity of innovation which they took away from India some centuries ago.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rY4Q2xx7BTc&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G2vhCPBjqcA&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FMlisMg4VPo&feature=related

When the lake speaks to you

I had attended the vipassana meditation course at Kaufman Texas.It was a beautiful experience.There is so much of information available on the technique online ,that even if I mention a single word suggesting how it works,its a waste of space and time.There is so much of intellectual information which gets processed daily.Its so strange when a real situation arises when you have to apply all the elegant theories you have learnt ...the mind does not listen.It just goes on and on with some tangent and produces a trail of bad emotions.I suffered the first two days in the same way trying to grab and control my unstable mind.I offered it my intellectual solace,the teachers kind words ,my anger,my love...everything ..but nothing happened...I gave up.I decided that controlling is not meditation.Domination is not meditation.Its self hypnosis.On the third day I sat during the lunch break near a beautiful lake for a long time.Everything was silent.There was no sound,no movement ,perfectly still..I could look at the surface and see how everything was quiet and beautiful and that instant I knew how to meditate.Its so strange I went to vipassana course to calm my mind using their technique and nature intervenes and teaches me the "zen" way or the "lake" way

What is compassion

Buddha was the most compassionate being that the earth could produce.One of the stories which gives us a glimpse of his nature is given below:
Once there was a man who came and spat on Buddha.His disciples were angered at this behaviour.Buddha wiped his face and said to the man,"Thank you sir.You created a context in which I could see whether I can still be angry or not.And I am not and I am tremendously happy.And you created a context for Ananda to see his anger.Many thanks,we are so grateful.Once in while please,you are invited to come.Whenever you have an urge to spit you can do it on us.

The man was shocked, he could not sleep whole night.He felt the way Buddha was grateful.The "Thank you" came from his heart directly it was not a formality.The next day he went to Buddha to ask for forgiveness.Buddha was seated near the Ganges.He showed the man the river how everything was flowing.Twenty four hours you are carrying it.Forget all about it.I cannot forgive you because I was not angry with you.If I was angry I would have forgiven.Go fall on the feet of Ananda he will be happy.


Our reactions to a particular action is the measure of our compassion.