The gradual shift..

I was blinded with glowing light pushing me towards a self which was new.I resisted the urge which was increasing in my heart.I never wanted to experience anything new.I thought I could live for ever.But all of us die so many deaths in our life time.It is always so difficult to move on from childhood to adolscence and from teen years to mature adults.If it is not enough that we resist our own natural development the people around us also don't understand the importance of growing up.Many adults who in their 30's are still clutched around by their mothers who still treat them like helpless infants.The evolution of the self is never given the highest priority.The growth initially lands us in depression as we still long for the familiar old self.True maturity lies when we take the suffering but still long for new expereinces and new dreams.